After months of debating, I've decided to go public with "my little program," a 78-lb weight loss and lifestyle change after a lifelong battle with my weight. While I'm the first to admit that many people have a greater cross to bear, this one struggle has been my single greatest source of misery in life. What began as a little pre-teen chubbiness at the age of 10 eventually became a 21-year obsession, stealing my self-esteem, my self-worth and my self-confidence in the process. No achievement was great enough to overcome what I saw as a betrayal by my own body. I spent years feeling worthless and out of control because of my weight, thinking my life wouldn't really start until I was thin. Eventually, my self-loathing cast a cloud over every area of my life: my career, my relationships, my health and my psyche, until I reached my lowest point at my highest weight of 240 lbs in September, 2001. This website is a chronicle not only of my physical transformation, but my journey to self-acceptance.